That's me on the left. It was my 18th birthday. I spent it with my brother Doug and his (then) wife out in Boulder, CO. A gift from my Dad for graduation. I look at this photo and think I looked damn good in comparison to now. I made that dress, by the way. In addition, my boobs were far more manageable. Seriously, that is a major hindrance in my life despite the amount of chatter I devote to Thelma and Louise.
I found new inspiration to drop the weight and get healthier; my 25 year high school class reunion is coming in July. I want to look better for that. What's more important is that I need to be healthy for my son.
When I attended my 10 year reunion in the Summer of 1993, I was about 30 pounds less than I am today, but more solid. The dress I wore was sleeveless and I had no fear of the underarm chicken wave. I worked out regularly, but still ate like I as a linebacker with the Chicago Bears. Today I could wear a burlap sack and still feel that too much flab would show.
This is a more recent semi-full view of me. I avoid having photos taken below the neck. I know that aesthetically I do not look hot or sexy. Don't try to convince me that it's ALL a state of mind. If that were the case you'd see pleasantly plump women on the runways and splattered all over billboards and television ads. I know plenty of larger women who have captivating attitudes and confidence, but flubber -- typically-- just doesn't immediately capture someone's eye. It's all been scientifically calculated and proven. It's the nature of the beast; survival of the fittest. Do not attempt to tell me otherwise.
Sunday, March 3, 2008 marked the first day of my NutriSystem lifestyle change. Yes, it's encouraged not to call it a diet. Diets imply a temporary fix. I want this forever. I look at my lively, handsome son and know it. I fill the role of both mother and father in his life. I have to be double the human, but not literally!
I went through the program and shopped for the produce and extras that need to accompany the meals I received via USPS. To be honest, I felt like I ate more than I normally do even though the portions are much smaller. With being allowed to eat unlimited lettuce varieties, it gives me the chewing fix I need. Thank God for flavorful greens. Less dressing is required.
I was fine while working, but once we had dinner and the Man-cub and I started watching a movie, I wanted to dash to my cupboard for our ritual micro-wave popcorn. I resisted and grabbed celery. I know, a far cry from the faux buttery goodness of Pop-Secret Home style, but I would have sabotaged everything I'd done that day. I crunched and munched. In fact, the Boy did the same. He's eating the veggies rather than grabbing for the junk. He often requests apples and grapes when brownies or cookies are at hand.
Today marks day two. I ate this really awesome textured and flavored apple strudel scone. I warmed it up and it was delish!
This program is fool proof. At least for me it's perfect. With the color coded packages staring me in the face I can't go wrong. I refer to my food journal and plan what the day's meal choices will be. I'm not much of a thinker when it comes to food consumption. Without a doubt, that's how my posterior got to the size it is now. I can do this, damn it!
I realize over time I'll have to ween off the program and be conscious of portion control and healthy choices. I'm keeping my eye on the prize without fretting over how I'll get there. I was told it takes 21 days to form a habit. I have 20 days to go.