You all know, by now, that I'm trying to get healthy and, in turn, lose weight. It's not that I feel awful or have major health issues, but there's no doubt that improvement can be made on my overall state of mind, energy level and physical appearance. Only moments ago a thought jumped into my head as I went to the kitchen to get breakfast (a blend of Chocolate and Banana Nut Cheerios). Do thin people -- those who've never battled the bulge or suffer from eating disorders -- do they think about food even when they aren't hungry? Obviously planning dinners etc are expected. Do they consciously choose something healthy even though they are craving a piece of pineapple upside down cake or a bacon & blue cheese-half pound burger? Or, do they just eat what they want but naturally stop before they are full? Is eating what they want in moderation something innate or a conscious choice?
Now that I'm a big girl -- and bigger than I want to be -- I must deny those demons control and stand up for myself. Always an inner battle. It is an exhaustive endeavor, at the very least. That's why I wondered if naturally svelte people have the same inner turmoil when it comes to food consumption. The body is designed to only crave what it needs. Simplistically speaking, of course. But we have to factor in life experiences and a lot of psychological factors when dealing with such issues.
Here's a question I ask of former heavy weights who've managed to kick flab to the curb and maintain a healthy lifestyle long term: Do you continue to have inner battles or does it become second nature? Have the old habits been replaced with healthy new ones and you no longer struggle? My journey has just begun and I'm trying to keep focused on what's ahead rather than what is so obviously behind me. I make small goals daily that. By week's end, those little achievements accumulate and they are collectively a huge accomplishment.
Help a sister out. I welcome your insight and perspective if you've battled weight problems or not.
...and yes, the foods I mentioned are exactly what I've been craving, as of late. **sigh**